Showing posts with label emotions. Show all posts
Showing posts with label emotions. Show all posts

Monday, June 8, 2009

A New Post


I am glad a lot of people read my blog. Some of them write comments, some of them sms me and some of them refer to it, to tell me indirectly that they have read my blog. So one of them asked me what do i read? Well, for one, i read books. I read, finish that one, pick another one. I recently finished reading A case of exploding mangoes by Mohammad Hanif.

A Case of Exploding Mangoes has Pakistan Army and its functioning as a backdrop, as the book goes onto explain Who killed General Zia-ul-Haq? Well, before you get any ideas... its a work of fiction. But its beautifully written. Any literature graduate will remember the college days when ornate prose was so well appreciated. It has some beautiful quotes from Urdu Literature. Anyone who enjoys beautifully written prose, is curious about Pakistan and its army and loves history as a backdrop to the story will like reading the Case of Exploding Mangoes.

After A case of Exploding Mangoes, i read Exodus. Infact i had left Exodus midway as i had forgotten the book behind at Amul's place. I recently picked it up and finished reading it. Its written by Leon Uris. Exodus is one his best books and he's a great writer when it comes to writing historical fiction. Exodus is about the formation of Israel. Its about how people flocked to Israel following Hitler's actions in Europe. Its a beautiful plot with a lot of drama, historical facts thrown in with the right mixture of human emotions, which have been cultivated beautifully. Its a long read though... Its not about reading it over a trip. It takes time to read it but its one of those books that is a must read.

And when i am not reading books... i am reading magazines and newspapers. That comes as a part of the job. But i also read magazines which has nothing to do with work. I subscribe to Outlook, Readers Digest and People. I regularly pick up India Today, The Week, Outlook Business, Vogue and Outlook Traveller. :)


And sometimes i read blogs on the internet.... the ones that my friends write or forward me, sometimes i pick them up from other websites where they are recommended by someone. They are interesting and i like their writing styles. I guess writing is such a beautiful way to express yourself... to reveal your thoughts without actually saying it.... to talk to people without having to actually call them.... and just share things you would like to.

Reading and Writing are two of my best occupations. They provide this cushioning to life. They fill in the gaps. They accompany you when u are alone. They give an expression to the feelings pent up inside. They release all these thoughts that generate in my mind and above everything reading and writing are like soul sisters.... companions for life.

If you have any recommendations that you feel i will enjoy reading... please do share them with me... :)

Happy Reading!!

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Dustbin!!!

I need a dustbin... not the usual cylindirical one which will welcome the rubbish and dirt that i collect and need to dispose... but i need a dustbin for my life. Metaphorical dustbin... the one which will take away all the dirt, negative things, things you dont want or need.... just to make your life clutter free....

I think after creating mothers... God must have created the dustbin. Its so useful. It actually is the only thing that accepts everything you dont want. It clears the mess and makes you feel so much better... and i really need one dustbin like this. The one that will happily house all the mess that i have generated over years... and help make my life clutter free....


I need a dustbin to throw away those bad moods... My mom who mostly bears the brunt of my bad moods would be so happy. For no reason today... i shouted at her on the phone.. just because she sent me to this chemist shop that was extremely crowded. Sorry mom!!

I want to dispose off those tyrannical rules established by NewsX. "If you dont have a day-plan, you will be marked absent"... "If dont submit this before 9am, its no good"... "Go to Modasa right now"... aaargh....

I want to throw that producer in the dustbin who gave me so much mental stress on Friday... "Who gave you the privilege of doing a story over five days... and dont tell me how much time it takes... and dont force me to escalate matters... you dont want me to do this... and dont tell me what to do..." Enough!!!! If she were on my desktop, i would hit the delete button and send her to recycle bin... and then go to recycle bin... and delete her forever.

I want to throw away this unpleasant negative emotions that come as a complimentary gift when things arent right with amul. I wish i could just gather all scattered negative emotions 'ohhh he is damn angry' (1am), 'oh... he's not going to believe me' (9am), 'he wont take my call' (11am), 'he wont see me' (3pm), 'he doesnt love me' (10pm) and 'its going to be over between us' (11pm).... collect all these... smash them under my feet and yup, you guessed it right... aim right for this dustbin.

At this point in time, my only want from life, is a dustbin.... metophorical one or perhaps the robotic one... which will obey my commands or perhaps just look at me in eyes and figure out whats wrong and deal with it. Who will scan all the viruses in my life... offer to deal with them... and on my command... in a few minutes of processing... all the mess will be cleared. swooshhhh!!!!

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Kudos to Democracy!!!

The black tip on my forefinger of the left hand makes me proud today. Indian citizens like me have shown how a collective effort can put people in their right place. I am indeed delighted that Indian citizens, only known for their poor manners and bad traffic sense, have proved to the politicians and the world at large that they have the brains to choose a government at the centre.

All the political pundits were crying hoarse about how its going to result in a hung parliament. The scouting for allies resembled like finding grooms for your daughter in Bihar. Anybody and everybody will do. It was shameful, dirty and cheap to say the least. But while Congress and BJP did all in their means and tried every trick in the book, the one who emerged the smartest was the Indian voter. The smart Indian voter knew that India cannot afford elections regularly. That India needs a stable government that can make changes over their full term. The same Indian voter also knew that giving a majority to a single political party would be the only thing that would end this dirty game of give and take that the coalition polictics is made up of.

I bow down to this Indian Voter. Its unbelievable the way Congress emerged as the single largest party with 206 seats. And the UPA alliance at 262 proved it, in just a matter of hours on May 16th, that Manmohan Singh will be the next Prime Minister. Good news. Though i am inno awe of Manmohan Singh. I feel he hardly talks. India is on its way to become one of the strongest economies and a power hub in years to come. We need a more vocal leader. And a person, who's personality strikes down not just allies but also your enemies. A Prime Minister, should be someone, who is not only witty like Winston Churchill but also a suave smart guy like Barack Obama. A Prime Minister should have a voice that is affirmative and assuring. Someone who can tell us, 'I am there for all of you'. Not a meek looking guy who's always watching his back. I find Sonia Gandhi more powerful than Manmohan Singh. Her body language shows that she's incharge. Her mannerisms prove her confidence and her concern. She doesnt look here and there everytime she's about to say something important. And believe it or not, her vocal chords too are stronger than that of Manmohan Singh. Looks like Sonia is the boss and Manmohan is her closest and the most powerful secretary.

I have nothing against the Congress party or the UPA. I am just putting my analysis of the guy who's India's Prime Minister. He lacks the machoism, good looks and a confident body language. I guess my favourite phrase 'there's nothing like an ideal man' holds true here. Only if the Prime Minister was a woman.... she would be all of it. But i dont want to turn this into a gender fight.

On the other hand, LK Advani, too wasnt a favourable choice. Infact, i liked the BJP manifesto much better than the UPA manifesto. I am not from the minority community, neither i am a farmer nor am i unemployed. So i am of no importance to the UPA. The BJP manifesto, on the other hand, had something for me. I am an educated, middle class, employed girl who dreams big and would like to see foreigners scout for Indian visas one day. BJP Manifesto promised that the tax exemption limit will be raised to 3 lakhs for women... and i loved that proposal. Another feature i liked was the Ladli Laxmi Yojna where a new born girl child is promised 1 lakh rupees by the time she turns 18. I really liked that. These were the real concrete measures to empower my gender. But unfortunately, LK Advani didnt look as a likeable Prime Minister either. He was too old. Today's youth hardly listen to their parents... forget grand parents. They want someone who belongs to their generation to make policies for them. Why would people chose LK Advani? So BJP, smart enough, to expose their second rung leaders... quickly came up with Narendra Modi's name. Now who would in their best senses talk about a megalomaniac, arrogant and eccentric Narendra Modi, who has been accused of butchering muslims in Gujarat? But BJP did. And i guess thats what can be attributed as the second best reason for NDA's loss. They thought people have forgotten Godhra and the riots that followed in Gujarat. Who can forget post godhra riots? Not us guys. We are too young to forget things that happened just 7 years ago.

Fortunately, NDA lost. Modi's hopes shattered of taking over from Advani. But i must say, Advani, even at 81, was extremely gracious enough to accept his defeat. He not only sent a message through Arun Jaitley that he congratulates Sonia Gandhi and Manmohan Singh, but also graciously offered to step down as the Leader of Opposition and morally took the responsibility of NDA's loss. That was in his most parliamentarian style. I appreciate that. On the other hand, there was Narendra Modi. Used to victories, Modi exposed how badly he handles losses. He remained cocooned in his bungalow. Gave strict instructions to security personnel that no one was to be allowed inside. Even media didnt get a chance to meet him and take his reaction. Perhaps Modi was too dumbfounded. And his ego didnt allow him to accept defeat graciously. So he took full 24 hours to recover and finally on his way to Delhi claimed 'there are no full stops in politics'. Right. Thank You Mr. Modi. Perhaps, Modi doesnt know how to be calm and gracious in defeat. He made an extraordinary attempt to give a broad smile as if nothing had happened. He behaved like everything was fine and he was on his way to congratulate UPA for their victory. Mr. Modi, its alrt to lose. Its alrt to accept your defeat. And its alrt to show how upset you are at NDA's loss. That would have seemed genuine. Your broad smile and arrogant optimism only turned off your sympathizers.

And i feel UPA would be smiling coyly in a corner after seeing Modi so hapless. They are on their way to form the next government and what seems from the news, is that more young faces will be inducted in the cabinet. That would really be a relief. I guess the biggest relief is not having Arjun Singh as part of the cabinet. He and his reservation politics have done no good either to the backward classes nor to the country. I hope some young guy like Sachin Pilot or Jyotiraditya Scindia is made the HRD minister. That would be nice. And Rahul Gandhi, true to his blood, is not likely to take up any post in the cabinet. When he knows he can be the Prime Minister, why would he be in a hurry to be part of the cabinet. He doesnt want to spoil his image or rather expose his working style by being a colleague when he knows that he can directly become their boss, in a few years. And not forgetting that even without a cabinet post, after Congress's stupendous success in these polls, Rahul Gandhi can wield enough power to have things his way in any department he wants.

So while Congress is on its way to form the next government, BJP is still thinking how to gather itself. I guess the reason why BJP lost and Congress won was because of the colour psychology. In the scorching heat, the saffron only hit your eyes and brains so badly that Congress's light blue was calm, refreshing change. Maybe they should look at colours the next time. But even as 2009 elections have drawn to close... the battle and preparations for 2014 have already begun. Rahul is aiming for the top most job next time around and BJP is determined to fight back and collect its reins to pull it off the next time.

I, at the end of all this tamasha, only hope that India's top political parties, keep in mind that the indian voter, is much smarter than they can think of. Kudos to Democracy!!!